Minho steps out of the bar to the rooftop, following Seunghoon’s hand gesture.
When Minho holds Seunghoon’s hands tightly and pulled him into a warm hug that afternoon as they say goodbye in front of Seunghoon’s house, he mumbles a thousands of “thank yous” into his ears, to which Seunghoon replies by tightening his fingers on Mino’s back. They hold each other dearly like the closest of friends, like lifetime partners, or just two people finding warmth in strangers’ kindness. Last night, when Minho took the staircases off the rooftop to get out of Nightfall after wishing him a happy holiday, Seunghoon asked Minho if he needed a place to be for the rest of the night. Minho had said, “I needed a place to return to,” and Seunghoon smiled at him, “that’s something you have to make yourself.” Minho had nodded his head and followed Seunghoon, Christmas streetlights above their heads, traffic noises coming from the main streets became more and more fainted as they walked through many dark alleys. And when he finally got there, he realized he had made a full trip back to where he started.
“So you were the one who took over this apartment after Clesias.”
Seunghoon looked at him:
“No. I took it from a guy who shares the same name as I.”
Minho didn’t know whatelse to do but laugh.
but I’m turning to my verses
and my heart is closing
like a fist.
sick as I am sick, swoon,
roll back your eyes, a pool,
and I’ll stare down
at my wounded beauty
which at best is only a talent
This fic came to me at first as a late-minute idea for Xmas. Now that Xmas is gone for a few days, it is finally finished. It didn’t progress the way I expected, to say the least. It is realer than I expected myself to write, and covered a lot of real issues that I almost feel like I’m writing an essay. Hope it doesn’t turn you off – but again, homoeroticism is all game and fun until we are reminded that queer folks in fact exist and face many types of oppressions and discrimination. I hope this is a fun but also an educational read for anyone who made it to the end.
Read statistics about LGBT youth here and here.
Read about male prostitutions, gay sex workers, sauna spas. The last one is a good read on spa hookups as an intersect between Korean culture and queer identity.
Full poem of Mayakovski, the biography of Frank O’hara, and the influence he took from Mayakovski (Russian poet whose penname was used as the title of the poem.